this is damn fucked up. i know i'm supposed to be grateful and i know it's for my own good to follow instructions but NO I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE IT. something inside just screams at the thought of going for treatment and swallowing pills. you might as well just predict my death date. i know i will die of high cholesterol and today i just discovered that i might die of breast cancer/womb cancer/brain cancer.

whatever.

if i have to eat things that cannot be found in school, not go under the sun when i play a freaking sport called field hockey, sleep early which is so impossible and swallow twenty pills everyday, sorry i would rather just die.

leave me alone with my screwed up lifestyle. it's not like i'm the only one who lives like that. it's not like i can change my lifestyle because i freaking need to study and i have a life besides academics. as if that alone wouldnt have robbed me of my youth.

i just DONT WANT TO LISTEN TO YOU.

shut up and leave me alone.

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I dont fking care
08 August 2009, 10:03 pm